welcome to my little world.
a post from the inner me, under the skin of my outer bright and cheerful self..
unwritten letters.
unspoken words.
i typed, i deleted, i typed again, and i deleted again.
i cannot pretend and fake my feelings.
i dont know who and how to tell, but here.
perhaps it is always my wishful and wilful thinking.
perhaps it is all illusions that i have seen.
time to let it go?
yes, i think it is.
no matter how hard and bitter it would be.
no matter how pathetic it sounds.
no matter how silly it looks when i shed my tears for that.
because i dont want to stand alone in an awkward situation,
which it will never be real
so i guess this would be the best solution.
so long, goodbye.
and i dislike the feeling when im misunderstood,
i dislike myself, when i always do the wrong thing at the wrong timing, and causes such a consequence.
after today,
i shall start to try to let it go.
it is just a matter of time..
i believe.
to myself : fenwei, there are so many other things in life which you couldnt afford to lose, so what's so big deal about this? life is beautiful, it's just a matter of how you view and treasure it. time to let go and stop looking backwards when there's nothing worthwhile for you to hold on to. move on and you shall see a better tomorrow. there's always sun and rainbow after the rain. dont ever forget how to smile and also other little things that cheer your day up..
you will be alright.