welcome to my little world.
I guess i might have typed out things exaggeratedly.
maybe it was really how i felt that time, so strong a feeling, but when i looked back at what i have written, i somehow felt abit silly and unable to explain anything when buddies approached me and asked me what have gone wrong.
I am absolutely thankful and felt the heart-felt warmth by their concerns.
at least i know that, there will always be someone there for me to listen to me, to bug me, to call me up, no matter how busy and stressful they are in their lives.
thanks you girl! for letting me to feel that im not alone in this world.
even though there are so much to tell, so much to catch up, so much of different things and different experiences that we are having now, on different parts of the horizon, thanks for giving me the feeling that im still loved and appreciated.
im a person who can get sentimental and emotional pretty easy.
i feel lonely easily.
but perhaps it's that i have too many things to attend to right now, with SBS Day the biggest annual school event coming underway while i am one of the chairpersons, i have no time to think about and fret on any emotions right now.
i guess my brain and nervous system is too busy to feel other feelings right now, apart from stressful!
i will certainly brace myself up for that.
and i wont let myself and the rest of the family down.
two weeks, just two weeks of "non-human" life, and i will be fine.
i hope that i would not give up halfway.
i will give the best shot.
what i need is really everyone's support and their way of viewing it, as important as how i view it, and also the spirit of family members getting together and stay strong and helping each other at times of difficulties.
please give me the strength for that,
and i will promise that everyone's hardwork is going to be paid off.
please please~
this academic year, i felt lucky and glad to be in the committee.
this is from the bottom of my heart.
not at all for hall point, but for all the fun and tears that we shared together.
no matter how the others think.
it wouldnt be the same if i didnt join in the big family.
i would not have grown, learnt and experienced, should i never be in the family.
i wonder if everyone feels the same way as i do, but what i must say is that, i have never felt the words "united we stand, divided we fall" so strong as ever before.
fenwei,
stay strong.
and big girl dont cry.
p/s : guys, i will watch my words the next time i typed. there is actually nothing serious to worry about my previous entries. who am i? im the strong fenwei!;] so nothing can bring me down! i must have faith in myself~
Friday, January 22, 2010
yes.
thank god i found it.
now, i realised something which i have never really given it a thought in the past.
i guess this is a good lesson for me.
学会珍惜和在乎
不要等到失去了才来后悔
因为往往失去了就不能重来
也千万不要迷失自我
那会是人生最大的遗憾
fenwei, dont let illusions blinded you.
i am sorry...
12:48 AMi will regret it for the rest of my life.
how could i let that happen?
even though i know my feelings, i shouldnt have done that.
where is it now?
where?
i swear i appreciate it a lot.
but it's missing. how could i lost it??
i feel like crying now.
will miracle happen?
will i find it again?
one hour passed. searching continues. but no where to be found.
i feel like a scandal now, i feel like i am the worst being in the world, i feel like i should just be shot down right now.
i feel miserable.
i guess i will condemn myself and it wont be erased from my memory forever.
what should i do now???