welcome to my little world.
sometimes i just dont understand myself.
to follow the crowd, or to do it my way.
to be loud and outspoken, or to be inferior and keep things to myself.
to be at the centre of attention, or to be unnoticed and ordinary.
to be here, or to be there.
to be myself, or to be one of the rest.
life is full of choices.
at least sometimes it is.
to make the right decision,
i have always been wanting to trust my instinct, but more often than not turn out to be the otherwise.
self-conflict.fighting with the inner voices.
i dont like today.
i couldnt get the courses i want, though i know there must be opportunities coming the way towards the end, yet i failed to wave off the feelings of undecisiveness and impatience.
i couldnt find my place in class, to where i belong, so i have been acting nomad.
i carry the responsibilities in a committee like the rest, but doubt if i can do it well and not to be sorry to myself.
i hate the pre-exam feelings, i asked myself to study but couldnt really bring it to the surface.
i hate having bad and negative feelings when i dont know the reason for being like this and what has gone wrong with me.
i envy people having fun and exciting life but im having a dull and non-productive one.
i wanted to join and participate in lotsa stuffs which are hovering in my mind but i couldnt find the courage nor the initiative to start right head on.
i yearn to do alot of things which time and circumstances dont allow.
i couldnt stay focus during lectures though im totally awake and couldnt find the source for my perpetual distraction.
im having bad memory.
im cracking my head on this post but nothing much came up.
so i decided to stop now.
p/s: all the best and good luck to everyone having QET tmr~
nites.