welcome to my little world.
yeayea..
just finished my exams yesterday..
as what i expected, didnt really feel that happy and excited..
just like last year..
but this year, no more singing practices and stuffs..
kinda miss all those days..
haha
but at least i can feel the relief that FINALLY A-LEVELS EXAMS ARE OVER!!
no more burying myself in heaps and mountains of books..
no more rushing myself to get on with my study plan..
no more feeling of a little bit guilty when having fun at watching tv&shopping&&outings instead of mugging..
those days are gone..
yea..
but more to come..
haha..
suddenly feel the bit of emptiness when u r not getting down on something..
but for the moment, i'll rather let myself free and chilling out a bit..
there are so many things on my mind but i have not started on any..
lolx
i guess it requires some good planning&determination&&perseverance in doing..
-gotta finish my story books, namely harry potter!haha!!(i was halfway reading it last time and now gonna finish it by starting all over again as i lost track to the story)..
-gotta watch some good shows for enrichment and entertainment..haha
-gotta do exercises to keep me healthy as i seriously think that the lifestyle im having now is totally passive and unbalanced..
-gotta meet up friends and trips!!~~
-gotta help out in household chores..
-gotta get a part time job..time is money!!haha..to earn some extra pocket money to buy and do things i want, to give a good treat to my family..
-gotta prepare for montage and graduation ceremony..
-gotta be my "family driver"..(haha, im one now!!and im finally not an P-driver anymore!!cheers~~)
-gotta look out and prepare for my future!!(though im still clueness rite now..sob)
overall, gotta do anything that i wasnt able and had no time to do last time!!!
but to think of it now, hey, im already a 19year old teenage!!and this is the last year of my teenage life(officialll though,haha)..just feel like i have miss out on a great deal of things..i wanna be myself, i told myself i gotta be independant and make my own decision for my future and never to regret anything that i have decided..and be strong&mature..to live life to the fullest..
still cant believe im going to graduate soon..
im soo gonna miss all my friends and beautiful memories that i had with them..
*so we gotta do the very best for our montage!!lol lol*
someday we'll all go separate ways and pursueing our whatsoever dreams..
scared of losing contact, scared of adapting to new environment, new places, and new faces, scared of making decisions, scared of etc etc..
but rather to see it as something fearful and full of uncertainty, why not treat it as a challenge to improve myself?
that's what i need and ought to tell myself..
feeling of uncertainty..
it's time to start a new chapter in my life..
past experiences and previous lessons i woulnt forget, as a guidance for me..
carry on and keep holding on to motivate myself
though the pathways in front of me might full of obstacles,
i believe colours of rainbow and shines of sun will always await me in the end
to get me through all the ups and downs of life(:
i believe..